Antara bahagia dan merdeka

Kebahagiaanku dan kemerdekaanku adalah sama - tidak secara total tetapi tiada pula tersekat dan terpenjara.

kebahagiaan bagiku seperti makan roti bakar disapu kaya di pagi hari, kemerdekaan bagiku pula adalah berlari berkaki ayam bersama jiwa yang ringan.

Complexity tidak membunuh aku, keringkasan tidak membantutkan aku.

Kerana aku ada kemerdekaan dan kebahagiaan bersamaku.
Dan kerana aku bahagia dengan kemerdekaanku dan merdeka dengan kebahagiaanku.

*krik* *krik*...

RUANG SEPI

Ruang aku BESAR, LUAS.

Tapi hanya ada aku seorang saja.

Di ruang BESAR nan LUAS itu aku berlari.

Tapi berlari seorang diri saja.

Dan aku berasa bebas dan gembira.

Tapi hanya sekadar sendiri merasa saja.

Ke mana aku pergi, yang kutemui  hanya diriku saja.

Setiap penjuru ku paling, yang kutemui hanya diriku saja.

Setiap refleksi yang ku lihat hanya diriku saja.

Detik itu baru ku sedari,

Ruang aku yang BESAR nan LUAS itu tiada lain, tiada bukan, RUANG SEPI semata.

Dan aku tenggelam lalu lemas dalam ruang SEPI yang baru ku sedar wujudnya itu.

I can't sleep....

 Hey, I can't sleep....come on eyes, sleep.
Ok, that didn't work...I can't even close my eyes.
Let's drink some milk...
Now I need to pee...
That didn't go so well...
Let's just say my prayers and sleep.
Sleep............
I still can't sleep...
Ok, maybe it's because I'm worried about my assignments...
Let's do some!
I'm sleepy...can't even hold the pencil...
Let's just go to bed...
And I still can't sleep...
*sigh*
zzzzz....
zzZZZ...
ZZZZZ....
Zzzzzz...
*huh*
What time is it?
2 a.m.
I slept at 1 a.m....and I woke at 2?.......
Hey, what's that?
....oh, the curtains.
Come on, eyes, sleep....
I need to get up early tomorrow...I mean today....
But not this early!!
...........maybe I'll fall asleep if I tell myself a story...
Let's see....ok, the main character....no, it's too usual...too common...
.....no, no such thing such as that................I think it's not working....
...........I'm tired....
Why can't I sleep?.....
..........
zzzzz....
zzZZZ....
ZZZZZ....
ZZZZZZ......
ZZZZZZ.......
ZZzzzzzzz....
zzzz......
*huh*
....
Hey, what time is it?
.....
12 pm.
.........damn......
T-T........................................................

I wonder...

There are times when one thinks on writing, or of things of great...things. But then again, one always seem to forget about it when the time comes to write, or say about it. One gets to wonder why...?

Marker renderings

                                            Pawaka (for art journal cover...I eat typo...)

The Sybil...what's her name...?

Sketches...

This is what we call as 'lazy but 'rajin' in the same time'. -_-;

If you can see what I drew, feel (really) free to comment. Onegai!!!

P.S : see from left to right...or whatever suits.
-_-......

Don't mind me...

I read and reread the chapters 1 to 7 (so far) of the golden earth and the silver skies...and unfortunately, I must say that I'm going to rewrite it...well most of it...since I've gone astray from the plot. Well, you know how it is...ideas pop spontaneously...and you just go with the flow...

That's the problem...going with the flow. I fear I had made grave mistakes these past months. To write so freely...to choose words so blindly. As if I left my brain somewhere. And gained it back later on.

Truth be told, at first I wanted to make a blog of wisdom, but without me noticing, it turned out to be a blog of feelings. Worse, it's of immoral whining...

I just hope I won't see or show my last semester self again.


*I need to be more self restraint. -_-;